paralysis

I'm not shooting as often, because of limited time. When I am able to shoot, the results are fine. In a technical sense, of course. In an artistic sense, sometimes. It's been more difficult than usual though. I'm spending too much time in the rational side of the brain. Creative bursts are too brief, too spread out. As a result, it's harder to be excited, passionate about creating images. I've actually gotten more enjoyment from photographing assorted roadside things in run-down small towns recently.

A few days ago, I did a shoot with a very mainstream model; not by accident, I do this sometimes just for variety.. She brought her own stylist. The two of them talked the whole way through, mostly gossip about other models, other photographers. There was the obligatory mention of America's Next Top Model, which of course I've never seen. It was difficult to get them to talk about the creative aspects of the shoot, if there were any. Really, my only intent was to practice my studio lighting, refresh those skills after lots of recent location work. These types of shoots work better if the expectations are kept in check.

The model said she had a bit of a panic attack earlier in the day, thought about cancelling, and her boyfriend talked her back into it. She was still a little nervous in the beginning, but then loosened up. She's had a fair amount of experience, so it's good to be reminded of how fragile attractive young ladies can be. She talked openly about her insecurity.

My next shoot is scheduled for the Bay Area, at the opposite end of the spectrum... a very alternative looking girl, whose messages imply brains and confidence, and a distinct lack of inhibition. We'll see if it's real.